Can i vent my emotions here?

im 25, i fix computers in manhattan for 30k/year after taxes, i've slept in a living room my whole life because my parents came from dominican republic and colombia and got a one bed room apartment when they got here in 1981. My brother was 21 when he died in a car accident on his way to bowie state university. Today I woke up asking myself is I want to be a sheep or a wolf in life. I know there are only so many ways to improve our quality of life in this physical or mental realm but anyone have suggestions for a bored intellectual with a background in history and Information Technology? Where in the world would you start you life over again in what today is a complete economic depression? Sometimes im more curious about graduating my flesh and bones since its like "earth been there done that"